There are things that, from time to time, people say about me that get seared into my mind, and I (for some obscure reason) want to immortalize some of these, perhaps to look at myself at see if they’re still relevant or not. Somewhere, I have the sneaking suspicion that they are all true, no matter how much I may like to pretend that I’ve moved on.
“Has little or no humility in his learning.” – Physics teacher, on a recommendation form. I got the scholarship that the recommendation was for, but I often wonder if this has changed at all.
“I don’t want him as a student because he’s a know-it-all.” – Prospective project supervisor, after having met me for one hour. When someone says something like “You’re just a walking dictionary,” this always comes to mind. I hope it’s not true any more, but I wonder..
“You’re SUCH a rational bastard.” – Friend, after a long, no-holds-barred discussion on the nature of reality. This I know to be true, entirely true. I might be less of a rational bastard now, but rational bastard I shall forevermore be.
“You know, occassionally, from the right angle, and in the right light, he’s almost handsome.” – My father, talking to my mother. The same thought has often crossed my mind.
“You are becoming a very interesting and complicated fellow, one who will inspire the fascination and desire of a sufficiently interesting and complicated woman.” – Friend; email sent in response to latest heartbreak story. So am I just supposed to sit around and wait, or what? And are we talking interesting and complicated in a good way, or is this just an oblique reference to my constantly-changing email addresses?
“I think I mean more to you than you mean to me.” – Friend whom I was deeply, madly in love with, breaking the news to me in the gentlest possible way. I knew that this was what was coming, but I can still clearly picture that moment in my mind, when the little spark of hope that is always there was finally put to rest. Quite a magical moment, actually.
Will post more as I think of them. In other news, today was a washout. Taught only one of five scheduled classes; all students sick or away. I was SO bored all day with nothing to do but read newpapers and drink peppermint tea. Thank god for swimming; one thing to look forward to this evening.