I’m sure it’s just a certain paranoia, but I often feel that I have to defend myself over wanting to have the dialogs in the first place, and then do it all over again when it comes to discussing K. Surely it’s not too much to ask that we keep his works at least peripherally around during the dialogs, or am I just blowing up something that’s really a very minor issue?
And frankly, yes, I am rather irritated when people say “You won’t be offended if I walk out, then?” and then just refuse to show up. I might be indoctrinated and blind, but why the hell is that license to tolerate every other madness? It’s a bloody K school, or had you not noticed?
And it always seems that we end up discussing why I chose that particular video, or text piece, rather than discussing the video itself. I have no objection to being put on the spot, but I think it’s a side discussion, that.On the other hand, I’m not sure what we would discuss anyway, so it’s rather a moot point.
Gah. I’m just ranting, as usual. I know nothing will come of it, and I’m not sure why I bother.
Then of course there was the whole swimming debacle, which left me feeling distinctly like a second-class citizen when it comes to activities; it’s not like we didn’t have a full vehicle, and the “oh but it’s exclusive” argument is just not going to float (beg pardon, not intentional). Every time we go anywhere there’s the possibility that someone can’t come because of work, or classes, or something else; are we going to cancel all those trips, too?
Not a good day, but it did snow all afternoon, looks to continue all night; hopefully we’ll get some settling so I can do a little photography in the morning.
Oh yeah, and I was told “Well, you certainly aren’t hurrying, are you?” about my education, which is true, but dammit, I’ve done one helluva lot else. I agree it’s time to get on with it, but I refuse to see the headlong urgency with which most people smash their way through things. Life is to be lived, not suffered through, and there’s a wealth of richness and diversity to discover; none of which I would have done if I had torn my painful way through a conventional education, so thank you very much, I quite like it this way.